how my little reflections make me a softee

This afternoon I had the chance to think about the things I wanted to do in my life be it now or in the near future. I also thought of the things I’ve done in the past and what have I gained through them in a positive way. There were so many good things that had happened and at the same time there were those which haunted me coz I felt I didn’t try my best for them. I was simply a coward at times I might say or I didn’t care enough or I felt they weren’t so important coz I was too arrogant or selfish to act on them. Ofcourse to some people they’re important but bec I was too selfish, …for me they aren’t and I somehow feel guilty about them. Now I am trying to defend myself so as not to feel guilty on some aspects. Sometimes I blame no one but me but sometimes I also blame certain  situations which could have change my attitude on those particular issues that I could have dealt with enough courage. However it’s time to move on coz what had happened had happened so let’s deal with it…move on… I guess I have learned a lot from those issues that have been thrown upon me…Do what you have to do which you think is right and the best way for that matter to be solved…Don’t take shit…I learned this from my fave actress Kristen Stewart…she’s young, she’s not perfect, she makes some mistakes too in her life but what I like most about her ( as witnessed from the many fans and people who’ve known her…  she sticks with what she believes in and acts on them…such a courageous young woman)…I guess that’s what I don’t have at times…I knew that I’m right but I lack the courage to act on them…I worry a lot because I was too selfish…lacking  passion on the things I love to do . I need to do and I should do…Yes passion and conviction…and not to forget compassion…coz if you don’t have compassion selfishness sets in and it’s for me more of a hindrance to be able to understand others and accept their situations and help them in what they need…for their own benefit!

On the other hand if you think you are still confused with a lot of things and you have your own  fears in making decisions in life seek also God’s guidance and love…and as I always say He’ll provide us enough courage to fight and settle our issues in our everyday life! God bless everyone!

Kristen Stewart and the Gentleman

good friends equals greater hopes

How time flies so fast and now we are almost done with September…A week from now it will be October which is quite a busy month for us students and teachers who are anticipating more seminars, encampments, press cons , school fairs, sports fest and others…Then we’ll also have our city Fiesta which is celebrated every 2nd Sunday of October…Not to forget our extra- curricular activities lol…fun times with family and friends…

And speaking of good times I wanted to dedicate this post  to two young Filipina who I happen to admire because of their extraordinary qualities…extraordinary in such a way that I see their courtesy to older people , the sincere love they have with their neighbors, the humility they exhibit in acknowledging things they still do not know but are willing to know, and the drive and hope they have to succeed in life…Thank you Nikki my lovely daughter and Rynee my young friend to the hope you’ve given on our young people… that truly our  youth deserve to be called ” the hope of our nation”…

when there is love there is life…

Oh …Terrorism in Norway?…Another sad sad news!…As our world make changes for the better it also has its share of worst times…At times it feels as if it’s better to just dream coz in our dreams we can make things better…and we can always  dream and hope  for the best…That’s why I always dream:)

Some of our movies and popular books were also products of our dreams…and I really don’t complain because some of them teach us how to love unconditionally…just like Twilight…

Bella and Edward’s love story is an example of it…In Twilight Edward refuses to turn Bella into a vampire because he doesn’t want her to lose her soul…In New Moon he let her go but Bella’s love for Edward won’t just let it … that they won’t be together again… and so she  saved him in the end and they were reunited in love…In Eclipse their love was tested and they won in the end…In Breaking Dawn Bella showed Edward that her love has no boundaries that she could sacrificed herself  for the ones she loves…she got pregnant and decided to face  her pregnancy to protect the child in her womb and give the baby a life of her own because the baby for her is a product of love…how sweet it is even if it’s just a product of the author’s dream…

I love how Kristen Stewart defended Bella’s pregnancy in some of her interviews…that Bella Swan’s character chose to have a baby with the man she loves…maybe some people might find it just a crazy story, a fantasy but I find it different…it has to be love, true love to sacrifice your life to the ones you love…

In our country there were debates on who are pro life and who aren’t…what is constitutional and what isn’t?…what could solve poverty and what couldn’t?…I guess I love Kristen Stewart’s defense on Bella’s pregnancy…she wanted to have a baby because she loved the baby and she loved her husband…No need to say you are pro life or anti life…Just one word…LOVE… you love the baby inside your womb and you wanted to protect her from harm no matter what…

Terrorism grows because we don’t care about lives…We are worst than the terrorists…We plant bombs in mothers’ wombs even before they were born…and when we hear stories of killings we cringed…we get angry…but in reality we’ve killed our sons and daughters with our own  selfishness and greed …we should know better…

I hope someday this world we live in would be humble enough to face the truth and follow the teachings of God that we must protect life and each other from harm even the unborn…

 

how people get to smile …

Hmmmm back at writing again…It’s been a month or so…I have a new set of students again to start the school year…As always I am obliged to serve them and guide them in their studies…be a good leader or a  teacher to them or be their most trusted friend as well…

I notice that I have some really really shy students this year than in the past year…What I mean is they really wouldn’t ask me questions and talk to me unless I open up first…which I find so odd since last year my set of students were completely different- so at ease or some of them maybe already even during the first week I may say so  and much more during the second week  of classes  …  but now there was this one who seems to be so aloof even when we were on our second week already…but then as days went by I notice that she isn’t really stiff as I thought so …I realized that she knows how to smile after all…Maybe at first she thought I couldn’t be a friend to her apart from being her teacher… but I made her realized that there is nothing to worry about being in my class… it really takes time to really get to know our students…Now she would get my hand before she leaves the room as a gesture of respect…and even would greet before she enters the room…but during the first week she wouldn’t even get my hand or even say goodbye to me when she leaves and or greet me when she comes…She is not the type of a person I guess who would easily trust someone..That’s what I notice about her…but once she got to know me  coz I always put an effort to smile at her even if she wouldn’t smile…that gesture from me I guess made a big difference…Now she talks to me in a very soft voice even if I wasn’t the first one who opens up…I am now getting her to trust me…Not only that I want to teach in my class I also wanted my students to trust me so that we could work harmoniously together in the  coming days and months to come…For two weeks I shared with them so many interesting stories of love, of  friendship, of caring…

In any organization one of our aims would be to be able to gain the trust of our co workers and even those we work with in that group or community…We all wanted to give respect with each other… and so to gain the respect of others we need to respect them as well…Respect begets respect…then trust will follow…

Happy Mothers Day

                   My Mother

Who fed me from her gentle breast
And hushed me in her arms to rest,
And on my cheek sweet kisses prest?
My Mother.

Who ran to help me when I fell,
And would some pretty story tell,
Or kiss the place to make it well?
My mother.
~Ann Taylor

Love this simple poem from Ann Taylor….Happy Mothers Day to all the Mothers out there!!!

To my Mom….Happy Mother’s Day to you:) ….Once I  remember a  time when I went home and I was really really sad but  you tried really really hard to cheer me up….I even felt  your sadness and pain when you asked me “What’s wrong?” because I knew you really felt my pain during that time. … Upon seeing me  looking as if the whole world just crumbled and crushed at me you did the best you could to comfort me and embraced me with your unselfish love…and then everything just turned out so well after that because I promised myself not to let you see me so desperate again….because mother’s love matter to me much….so thank you Mama for being a great Mom to me and to all your children 🙂

Again Happy Mothers Day 🙂